Tis so sweet

Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus

Just to take Him at His word

Just to rest upon his promise

Just to know, thus says the Lord

This song has been one of my favorites for a long time. The version I listen to is so upbeat and fun, and I love the idea of trusting in the Lord, and how sweet a reward it is, when I know He has got me in His hands.

Sometimes, trusting the Lord is easy. 

I trusted Him to provide a place for me to stay in my new town, and He answered that one in three days.

Oh, wait, that was actually a week of waiting, and I was pretty worried about that for a while...

Well...I trusted him to....

Ok, scratch that. Trusting the Lord is difficult.

This week has been heart wrenching at times. Every day at the chapel, on my knees, sometimes weeping before the Lord, asking him, why? why?

My heart was filled with fear, overwhelmed, and a little angry.

How could he mess everything up? I'm not ready for this, I'm not emotionally prepared, not physically prepared, I'm not even spiritually prepared! I cried to Him. 

6 hours, and my plans were changed.

My perfect, tidy plans of moving that I've prided myself on, and that I worked out the the most minute detail. 

To quote my best friend "Hang on a second, while I laugh with God at your plans."

My first mistake was having tidy, supposedly set in stone plans in the first place. 

I left no room for the Lord to change them, fix them really, and so when He did, I played tug of war for a little while. 

If you've ever played tug of war with God, you know how that one ended.

As I've reevaluated, adjusted, and changed my course to fit the new plan the Lord was putting in front of me, the only two things I could do were to mope, and feel sorry for myself, or to trust Him.

I tried moping for a while, but I'm pretty sure He just chuckled a little bit and kept going.

The only thing I had left to do was trust Him, and start walking through the door He opened for me.

And lean on Him for strength. 

Another friend gave me a perfect analogy for my week.

"It's like you're on a path, and the only part of the path you can see is the small place in front of you that your lamp is shining on. I think your verse this week is Psalm 119:105-Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path."

She was right. 

Here I was, stressed out and overwhelmed because I couldn't see more than a foot in front of me, but that was all I needed to see. That was all He wanted me to see, so the only thing I could do is take only the ones illuminated by His lamp.

So yes, when it is all said and done, it is so sweet to trust in Jesus. Sometimes the sweetness doesn't come until after I trust him with my whole heart and ALL of my plans. 

Maybe, as I get better at trust, it will get sweeter earlier. 

Hanna Elizabeth